Abundance
Chicacao, Guatemala-Spring Break
Today we went to a village on the other side of the sugar refining plants. Who would think something refined to be so sweet would smell like sour milk in the process. I am learning that the refining process in life is not pretty.
Once we got to the village, we worked with the dentists. I had not been out of the van for more than a minute before I met my friend for the day, Ronald. Ronald was huge for 4 year old, full of strength, as I would later see tested, and full of spirit. Ronald opened his mouth wide for the gringos and growled letting us know with a consequent giggle he was ready for the dentist. That is until he got a taste of his own blood. Even in the make shift dentist chair on the concrete porch of the village church Ronald smiled and laughed. Then the shot. Then the shift. His demeanor changed instantly. Now he was crying and I sat by his side and tried to calm him holding his dirty little hands. I was serving two purposes. Calming and restraining. As the dentist worked on Ronald's mouth, he began to bleed and tears turned to screaming. I quickly had to move from holding his hands to laying my chest on his body to hold him down. Just leaning over wasn't enough. He was squirming so bad I had to get out of my seat and put all my weight on him to hold him down.
He was so upset we decided to only pull one tooth, instead of the three his mother had requested. Everything seemed to be moving in slow motion except for the sound waves pouring out of Ronald's throat. I was desperate, feeling totally hopeless watching another human suffer. I began to pray in English, audible only to God. God help this boy, God get us out of here. The tooth came out.
I immediately swept Ronald up in my arms. We walked by his anxious mother, so she could see that I was taking care of him and walked into the empty church. I bounced and squeezed him like a father trying to soothe a crying new born, while Ronald started his catch up breathing from all the screaming. Together in our pain we felt peace not in the words offered or said, but in the silence of one human holding another. The church was our harbor in the tempest.
The scene was all to familiar to me. A life turned upside down, where no words, nor explanation will ease the pain, where one stronger has to suppress your pain, so you don't hurt yourself. Finally, the stronger one picks you up, not for words sake, but for the sake of embrace, for the physical manifestation of peace. There in the church I set Ronald down and began to give him a water bottle caps worth of water for him to sip with his bloody little mouth. My Spanish is weak, but I understood one word he repeated over and over again. Maybe I recognized it as my word in a universal language. Porqui? Why?
I doubt this little 4 year old was wise enough to understand why he suffered so much, even if I could find the words to explain. Within an hour he was our bragging to the other children waiting. He was strong again and his playful spirit was back. After he enduring great pain, he was in a land of abundance.
"You have tested us, O God;
you have purified us like silver melted in a crucible.
You captured us in your net
and laid the burden of slavery on our backs.
You sent troops to ride across our broken bodies.
We went through fire and flood.
But you brought us to a place of great abundance."
Then something happened to me. As I watched him run among his new friends, the white giants. I saw one of those giants participate in a miracle. She was playing with her new friends and without warning they grabbed her hands and dragged her into a run. Right in front of my was my wife, hand in hand with two little girls, running for the first time in 2 years. Peace after pain is a blessed place, a place of abundance.